Where to start, how did I become a MILF of OC

When put in a situation of no job, what will you do?

60 days of severance pay, that is it. This is my time limit to figure out what I can do in order to survive. Internet, here I come!

So, there are a million websites that say that you can find a job if you “follow these simple steps”…hahahaha, this is the most entertaining thing I have ever heard. I filled out my name so much that I thought my identity would be stolen. This is crazy. I love that everyone wants to help, or they say they want to help, but they actually want money from you or they want you to be sales for them. It is nuts that we become so desperate that we can almost believe anything that is said through email or a well-worded website.

All the major “job search” sites were showing nothing that I could make money doing. For some reason I decided to go onto Craigslist, at that time there was nothing dealing with mortgage, real estate or being low paid personal assistant/secretary. I clicked on the “adult” section for entertainment. At that moment this mouse click changed my way of thinking. It is amazing how some of the ads read and how people out there will pay a truck load of money for sex. This is just mind blowing. Well, I did some reading and found a couple websites that you can put up a make-shift resume for adult performance. Humm, is that correct; adult performance, adult talent, modeling and acting while naked? I don’t know but I checked some of them out to see what the big deal was. I put up an ad/resume on a site and tried to see who was interested in my look.

My look, what is it exactly. I am a 37 years old female with 36D’s I am about 140 lbs, My ass is the size of a truck and I am white as a ghost. I stand 5'4". I have tattoos that are scattered all over my body but I have a good personality. How to you sum this up into a specific look? I have never really relied on my looks but have tried to keep myself looking good, well, decent, ok, I have my moments.

I have found that when you think of porn or a porn style job, you think of the beautiful, size zero, long legged, blonde haired, blue eyed, knock out girl that I could not compete with when I was in school. I was the short and cute girl with no boobs, a big ass and a great personality. So the boob job helped me with the big butt and gave me a decent curvy shape. But other than that, I don’t think I have anything to offer. I guess we shall see, now won’t we.

I have been to swing clubs and am a true exhibitionist. There is one brownie point for me, "exhibitionist". Having sex in front of people is not an issue but what do I have to offer, yep, this is still lingering in my head. My personality is the thing that most individuals are attracted to. However, I question so many of my own flaws. I have nothing to offer I swear, but I need money! Okay, I just need to shut up and do it. Stop over thinking! Stop being a neurotic freak and JUST GO FOR IT! The resume is complete, now I sit and wait.

There are a bunch of, “un-desirables” out there that contacted me to do escorting or just wanted to pimp me out for 50% of the money. But that is a totally different story for a different day.

If I was going to go into the “adult industry” I want to be on DVD’s or something. But how do I do it?

Turns out that during my research I have found that I need to be tested. Well, I knew there was testing but didn’t know what kind. Well, HIV for sure but what else? Do I just go to my regular doctor for this? I needed to know where and how to test. Asking questions was a great thing and I found that AIM is the industry accepted testing. wow, what a trip this has all been.

I have found an Agent, through research they like the flaws in my look. Now I have to go meet them and get nude pictures taken. I am off to Chatsworth, CA to get started.

Upon arrival it turns out I was the MILF that they were looking for, a new face as it were. Turns out that a slightly over weight, older lady with a good attitude is what they were looking for. So, I guess I picked myself and look apart for no reason. The skinny beauty that we are all threatened by is not all that, who knew. I think I might like this ego trip it is a fun ride so far.

A comment was made or request I should say, do not shave, yep, that is right, down south, don’t shave. Now when I think of porn chicks I think of fully shaved, skinny, perfect, no tattoos, young. What is this all about? Well, I guess there is a market for everyone out there and it is no longer the cookie cutter image that we have grown up with. I do love a little classy, girl next door look, but there is no variety there. Seems that the public has spoken and a few of these porn companies have listened. Lucky me! I am not sure what category or genre I am going to fit into, I guess I will find out soon enough.

I was being scheduled as I was standing there. I was going to do a Boy-Girl scene on Wednesday May 30th, 2007 3:00pm. What is going on? Holy cow, I am going to do it. I am going to fuck on film for a fee. The nerves have kicked in and I am on my way. I am ready to scream and am excited, scared and elated, terrified, Oh crap, every emotion that can make you nauseated, yep that is how I felt. Are there any more emotions I should be feeling? I don’t think I can feel any more at this time, let’s just do this and get it all on the new track.

I am trying to let those out there know how it all starts and that even though a decision is made, it is still as scare as hell. I am so happy you are all taking this ride with me and the scene is cumming up next :-)